Ugh! I’m sick and I feel blicky. My mom kept tellng me to slow down or I’d make myself sick. But did I listen? No. But I know that my mom is such a loving and selfless person she won’t say I told you so. In fact, I wouldn’t be surprised if she fed ex’ed me some chicken soup. Right mom?

Tomorrow several people are coming by to look at the kittens. I always hate saying that, ‘look at’, it sounds like they’re cars or furniture or something. It’ so impersonal, so detached and cold. I mean, these are living creatures we’re talking about, not inanimate objects. So far everyone who’s called has been really nice and hasn’t had a problem with our requirements (the cats have to be kept indoors and we have to do two home inspections). I know some people can’t understand why I’d go to so much trouble but then some people don’t hold the same beliefs as Sean and I. We feel like a life is a life, whether it’s a kitten, a panda, or a human beings. Why should one life have more meaning or value than another? So we take this very seriously. I figure if people just want an animal they can look at there are plenty of birds outside and if they want something they can play with and then put away they should buy a Furby. People need to realize that animals are not property and they aren’t disposable. They feel love and pain and fear just like you and me.

Tomorrow we’re going shopping for a few last minute things for the Thon and the house assuming we get time after everyones come to see the cats. If not then we’ll go Sunday. I’m not worried that things won’t get finished, but I am stressing a bit over how much there is left to do. I especially don’t like having to wait on other people or depend on them to get things done because I’d rather just do it myself. Poor Skyte has done a really fantastic job of helping out even though she has four hundred thousands jobs and I know that the fine ladies and gents running the Blogathon are doing their best to get things finished but I can’t help but feel a little panicky. It’s less than a month to the Thon and only twenty two days to the fundraiser and I still have so much to do. And now that I’m under the weather I feel even more pressure to get things done asap.

I went a little nutty earlier this week and bought fifteen new songs from iTunes. Sean and I used to have a nice collection of music but we ended up selling most of it during the first couple years he was in grad school to pay for things like food and heat. I still have some of it backed up on my PC but I was getting sick of hearing the same songs day in and day out and the radio stations in Mayberry play a very small selection of music. Plus, iTunes is doing that spiffy iPod giveaway and I thought maybe I’d get lucky and win one. We haven’t yet decided if we’re doing the radio station during the Thon but if we do at least now I’ll have something decent to play.

Well I’m off to work on some more stuff. If you pray then pray and if you don’t then wish on a star or put some thought towards the kittens finding good homes. I don’t mind giving them up, I’ll miss them of course but I want what’s best for them and what’s best is to have a devoted family to give them lots of time and attention. But I do worry that people won’t take care of them properly. So pray that they find good loving homes. And pray that I feel better and get everything done without having to be commited to the looney bin. And of course pray for the families of the the victims of the attacks in London, and for the world in general. We can all use a little help right now, locally and globally. So send good thoughts out into the world. Good luck and blessings, Prana

It’s 3:30 am and I’m awake yet again. The difference is that tonight, unlike the last three weeks, I haven’t been up all night. I’ve been having a lot of trouble sleeping lately. I get tired, believe me I’m exhausted, but I simply can’t go to sleep. I lay there and look at the hideous popcorn stucko ceiling and my brain just keeps going and going. It’s like there’s a radio on somewhere and I can’t find it to turn it off. So I’ve been staying up all night, falling asleep at 10am, waking up at 2pm and doing it all over again. But last night I made myself stay awake and didn’t sleep today. I ended up conking out at 8pm and then I woke up at 1am and couldn’t get back to sleep. I was having bizarre dreams (as usual) anyway.

I broke down and bought the monitor Sean so delicately suggested I get. It’s quite a lot larger and nicer than my old one. It’s a Envision EN7410 17″ LCD Monitor. It got good reviews and we got it for $230 instead of $260 which is what the Staples website lists as the price. I would have liked to have gotten one with an even better resolution (though I’m not complaining, so far it looks great) but out here in Mayberry Staple’s is the only ‘computer’ store so I’m limited to what they have unless I want to order one online. Usually I don’t mind shopping online but some things need to be seen up close, touched, tested and you just can’t do that online. I’m feeling terribly guilty for spending so much money on something so frivolous but I really needed a new monitor since the last one had been dying a slow death for some time and then two weeks ago began to literally scream at me non-stop.

Work on the Blogathon and it’s related fundraiser is coming along nicely though there’s still a ton to do before the magic happens. I’ve been so busy working on it that I’ve barely spoken to family or friends and I haven’t even touched World Of Warcraft in almost a month. I would feel guilty about that except that I’m to busy and to tired. Having the twelve cats (I’m not complaining!) is a little overwhelming but I’m getting used to it. We put an ad in the local swap sheet which will run for the next week so hopefully we’ll find some good homes for them. Otherwise I’ll be stuck with a zoo because I refuse to put the poor things to sleep.

Well I better get back to work. The sun will be coming up soon and the cats will start trying to break the door down for their morning feeding. Good luck and blessings, Prana

Our last conversation:

Sean: You should get this monitor.
Me: No thanks. I want a new one but that’s a bit spendy.
Sean: You could consider it your anniversary present.
Me: ::looks at husband as if crazy:: How is that romantic? You might as well get me a vacuum or a dish washer!
Sean: Yeah, but you would actually use a monitor…

Sadly, Sean was killed under mysterious circumstances shortly after that conversation. Reports are sketchy but I’m told he was bludgened to death with a vacuum. Neighbors report hearing insane laughter and someone screaming, “I’m using it now aren’t I!?”

Sean will be missed. Good luck and blessings, Prana